However I do find it shocking when men who witnessed me go through my different stages such as: being a tom boy, and a thinks she knows it all teenie bopper tries to talk to me. I mean fellas some ladiwes should just be off limits. Well lately that's been happening a lot.
A lot of my cousin's friends or men from around the way who got me by at LEAST nine years have been on it hard. Now even if #35 didn't exist they still wouldn't have a chance simply because I know what they are about! But out of all these individuals who've tried this these two has bothered me the most.
Okay we'll call guy friend number one Gary. Well me and Gary go way back. Like I literally have images in my head of us tossing a football together in the street (yuck). Like he was always cool and like family. I even remembered trying to hook him up with a friend of mind when I was in highschool. They even chilled in a hotel (and trust I told her to spare me the details because he was like a cousin) but I was shocked when she told me that while in the hotel he was quizzing her on If I was a sexually active or not. That should of been a sign right there. But I shrugged it off and was like why on earth would I be the topic of conversation while he's in a hotel room with my beautiful friend. Well anyway with age comes curves and as time went on we lost contact. I think he went away due to some legal trouble (aka the ninja went to jail). Then he seen the womanly side of Black Barbie and lost his damn mind. He came right out with it telling me he don't look at me in a cousin-ish way. It hurted me because I'm like ummm no we can't talk like that. But at the same time I didn't wanna lose the friendship that I sooo valued. Well just like I predicted its not the same. I actually cringed when I see him because I don't know how to approach him. Its crazy because I remember he would tell other guys to fall back for trying to get with me (like a real big boy cousin would). And talking to him was soooo natural feeling. I really did live Gary like a family member. But I guess sexy does have its cons.
Friend two was soooo random as well. Another person that watch me grow up. Situation was similar. He went away seen me in a club and couldn't believe his eyes. He got my # from a cousin and would call everyday. But I thought nothing of it because he too was a family friend. Even more than the friend "Gary". But one night over drinks he just kept telling me how sexy I was, how my body is ridiculous and that I could get it. I had to tell him I didn't want it and that I have a boyfriend who I love very much. Dude even asked me to go on a trip with him. And while saying all this wanted to make sure that I didn't tell my cousin about this. Well because I wasn't paying....umm we'll call him Jerry. Well because I wasn't paying jerry no mind there's nothing to tell my cousin. Now once again just like I predicted the vibe. From the previous situation I'm sure things will be uncomfortable when ever he's around. He stop calling when he realized that it wasn't going down like that. Now I feel like I'm gotta come at him like a random dude. He'll be lucky if we are even hi and bye. What's funny is he was sooo overly confident. Ha. Love shooting down those types.
Its sad because I would love to have a heterosexual MALE friend who isn't distracted by my female anatomy. Like if you are a family friend don't try to cross that line. Age might not be nuttin but a number but kissing cousin is striaght gross (even if it is pay cousins)!!!
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